One of the reasons I hate being the only young black guy in my office is that I get approached with all the ‘urban’ trivia or that’s the only thing they want to converse about. Lemme explain…
I’m m in my office, ya know perusing the inner workings of the internet for memes and such. I’m done with my training for the day and I’ve already prepared for tomorrow’s class because, I’m a G like that. In comes Todd. Uggh. First he walked by my door and I guess since he noticed me and my door was slightly, and I do mean slightly, open he decides to just come on in. Shit. I turn down Michael Jackson’s Thriller album. Yep, I listen to a different MJ album everyday. Sidebar: Even though I’ve ve listened to this album a million times or more I’ve never watched the Thriller video and I probably never will. I’m a scaredy cat, okay? Geez. Let me alone, Becky.
Anyway, I turn down Human Nature just as it’s about to begin so I can hear whatever foolishness Todd wants to tell or ask me about. The first thing he asks is “Michael Jackson fan, huh?” no, Todd. I’m just blasting a different album everyday because I just hate his music that much. He begins telling me some story that I assume is related to Michael Jackson but of course I’ve already tuned him out as I go back to staring at my computer screen. I hear like every 3rd word or so. Then I hear “hey, did you know Gucci Man (yes he said man, not mane like main but man like tan) has a book coming out? I know you read a lot because you put books on your secret Santa list…”
What the Fook! Todd get your dumbass out of my office. Well, that’s what I wanted to say but I just started at him like this:
While I did know that Mr. Radric Delantic Davis aka Guwop is an author and I actually Pre-ordered the book, why would Todd just assume that I did just because I’m black? This happens often. Like I’m their personal guide to any and everything black. This is so aggravating. I feel like they only keep me around because of this.
I have to find a way to address this problem but I’m not sure how. I wanted to say something but in the moment, I didn’t know what. I know I’m not the only one that experiences this type of behavior. As the only chocolate chip in the cookie, I tend to standout. I have to watch what I say, how I say it, how I dress etc. It’s super frustrating but I also think I may be putting more pressure on myself. Like they may not even be checking for me, boo.